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Sunday, December 20, 2009
Last blogged @ 10:02 PM Today had a little blast of time with family.Had breakfast+lunch=brunch with family at Suntec Swensens.As we celebrated mum's birthday today and ofcourse and obviously, it's mum's birthday.
After getting our stomachs filled, we headed to ausino to get bed sheets.Sadly, i didn't get mine as nothing really catches my eye and even those that cought my eyes actually went out of stock.(totally not my day).From Aussino, we headed to E-Fair or something like that at the convention hall.And that was where i became a happy girl for awhile (: Why i was happy is because, after so long that i have been wanting a DSLR.FINALLY TODAY! i bought myself a Camera DSLR.Ofcourse elder brother and i will have to share the cost of the camera together.Parent's aren't paying because elder brother and i are already working and so we will have to start to learn to manage our expenses and pay for what we want.(bummer)But on the sad note, i didn't manage to bring back the camera today as it went out of stock and the stock will come in around 2 to 4 weeks time.Never mind, i'll just have to wait (: Once i got home, i started to print pictures to fill up the frame i bought yesterday with family and i teared looking at one picture i printed.I'll explain later.There will be 2 pictures of my room.A little preview of my room, i'll put more pictures up when my room is in a better shape and less messy. I would like to share about this small section of my room that has become my most favourite place in my room.This is the place where i sit to clear my mind by looking out the window and also the place where i sat and cry when i feel troubled or facing with challenges.For example,my current argument now.This place is where i'll mostly spend my time.This small section of my room is the place that witnessed my tears falling and the only section of my room that i feel extremely calm thanks to the scenery and water sounds outside.  Back to explaining why i actually teared and than cried when i decided to print this once picture.At the top there is a row of pictures now, this bottom is the zoomed in. I cried ofcourse after printing the picture of me and dearest.WHY?because i just miss him too much right up to the extend that i just can't put into words and to the extend that i actually cried.WEIRD MUCH?That's me.I'm the weirdest and most sensitive girl on earth.I cried because i just miss him so much and it's been days since our last meet up and it would be difficult for us to be meeting up any sooner.Thanks to my working schedule and my strict family.And to make things worse, we're arrguing for nearly a day already and nothing seems to get better instead it's getting worse.I just hate it.For those who knows how it feels i'm sure you'll understand my situation now. DEAR; i know i'm nowhere near perfect and i know that i'm the reason for this huge argument we're having now. i know i should have think properly before i acted but now everything is just too late.the argument gets bigger and bigger by tick of time.i don't think sorry will make things go right.i don't think dreadfully sorry will make any difference either.but i just want you to know that the words i said and the actions i made was all due to my self-centeredness and the fear that my history will repeat.i should have known well enough that i should stop fearing the worse but somethings just can't be helped.i don't intend for this argument to continue any further and obviously i want it to end as soon as possible.to sum this up,baby i love you and i sure do miss you alot.and when will our next meet up be, god knows when. |
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 Nur Amalina Roslee; LYNN est. 201093; 18 yet so aimless Mum's precious diamond & Dad's little girl I'm hard to please & i hurt people alot I'm nice but i can be pretty nasty at times chocolates & ice-creams brings me JOY i'm not perfect and so are you_|_ TAGBOARD
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