Sunday, August 23, 2009
Last blogged @ 5:24 PM

Today the 23 and it marks the 2nd month of me knowing MR M.But now, everything is gone.His gone and never coming back.Over something that i still don't understand.Maybe it was my mistake but don't i deserve a second chance? I'm going bonkers over and over again.Why cant you take back your words and we start all over again. Can?

This is shortest post i've updated.Will update again when there is a need too.And to all my Muslim friends, HAPPY FASTING!

Monday, August 17, 2009
Last blogged @ 8:43 PM

Currently using daddy's lappy and i will have to depend on this lappy from now on.As i've shifted out from my house and currently staying at my grandparents house at woodlands.And the whole family is sleeping in one room.Can you imagine that? Yes, it is very cramp.

But as for me, i decided to sleep in the living room instead.As i don't wish to be sleeping in a cramoy room and i don't wish to be awaken from daddy's loud snore.So first night sleeping at grandparents house was really uncomfortable.No air-con was installed so had to depend on the ceilling fan to keep me cool.Trust me, it was off no help.I couldn't sleep properly and i keep waking up every 1hour or so.Yes, i'm complaining.

Today after school met up with Mujahid at Causeway Point and we cathced a movie together.We watched the show UP and i shall give it 5bites.It is an adorable show and real funny.Ouh and i bought a pair of ear-rings and 4 friendship bands.CRAZY? i know (:

That will be all for now and i'm off to unpack my stuffs.Really alot of stuffs to unpack.

Labels: i'm still missing him.

Thursday, August 13, 2009
Last blogged @ 9:46 PM

Alright sayangs, im back to update my blog after a few days of going missing.But before i start, my hit counters have been going up but my tag board is just so dead.My blog seems so dead.Do tag alright sayangs.

I'm getting back on my feet now but ofcourse with help from my friends.But it seems so difficult as everytime when i'm all alone *his* name will just pop-up in my mind.WHY? i'm just use to having *him* text messaging me and keeping me company most of the time.But now, everything seems so different.Something new for me.And to the people who tagged my blog, i would like to say thousands of thanks for caring so much for me and especially big big thanks to JASLYN,AMANAH,MUJAHID,AQIM,MAN.These are the people who really went to all extend to hear me out and tried their very best to cool me down.And not forgetting people who tagged in my blog IMA and SILENTREADER.Thank you. "love you all larh"

So let my briefly share with you what i have been doing.I have received all my prelim results.Frankly, i didn't pass most of my subjects and that's upsetting.But on the other hand, there is HUGE improvement in most of my subjects and most of it is only a few marks away from passing.I guess i'll just try more harder next time.WAIT! there is no next time, my next time will be my "N" levels.So i guess, i'll try double hard for my "N" levels.

TUESDAY, met up with Firman and company.Accompanied them to their school and entered their class.HAHAS! can you believe it, i entered their class with my school uniform and people were like starring at me.From there, i went back home to get the rest that i need.

WEDNESDAY, planned to go to KK with Mujahid to visit little cousin but plan got cancelled because little cousin got discharge.So instead of going to KK, we met up at Yishun and had a long chat.However, i saw some group of people that gave me fright and sent my shiverring due to nervousness.

TODAY, planned to have lunch with darling Jaslyn but plan cancel as she had her own plan.So, met up with Firman and friends again.Sat in the library for awhile and off to lunch.After lunch, went back home to have a nice cold shower.And went back down again to meet up with Firman and Izz.Sat at the BBQ area for a good 1 hour plus.Plus the boys were happily using the lappy and surfing through the net.I just know that Izz and i are in a similar situation.

Enough of blaberring.Here are a few pictures.Actually there is more but as usual i'm just plain lazy.So enjoy these few pictures sayangs.

Don't get the wrong idea on the last picture alright.We are just real close and trust me they are really great friends for me.So, keep on tagging alright lovelies.

Labels: ps; i'm still not over you

Monday, August 10, 2009
Last blogged @ 2:37 AM

HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

This is an edited post lovelies.It is reaching 3AM and i still wide awake.Instead of getting the sleep that i need, here i am updating my blog.I just couldn't get myself to sleep.And so, i borrowed daddy's lappy and start to use it.

So, how did you celebrate National Day? I bet you people had fun.Going out with friends or family members and watch the fire-works.Well, as for me, i stayed at home with mummy, younger siblings and maid.Daddy isn't at home because he performed for NDP.Elder brother went out with his friends.In another words,my day is extremely boring.But can't be blamed though.Youngest brother is recovering from his sickness and as for me, my headache is actually getting from bad to worse.And i guess that us the reason why i didn't go out (:

Something i want to share.I was looking at some videos at YouTube when i came across this music video and i think it is just really nice to listen.It is a song sang by our local Malay guy.I just listened to it for the very first time and i am already addicted to it.So,i just thought of sharing.Enjoy lovelies and don't forget to pause my playlist.

I think if you read the lyrics you might understand more.If you people have been reading my blog, you might understand what i am going through now.And the song is especially for that someone special who have left.GOSH! who am i kidding.I just cant seem to get you out of mind.I can be lying to people but i cant lie to myself about how i really feel and what i am going through.

Labels: and i am still crying because, i just cant seem to forget you

Saturday, August 8, 2009
Last blogged @ 8:52 PM

Thursday, August 6, 2009
Last blogged @ 8:49 PM

I think today is just not my day.Firstly,i woke from my 1hour sleep with puffy eyes and I'm having eye-bags but it isn't that obvious.Secondly, i kept tripping on myself non-stop and lastly when i reached school, only than i realised that i forgot to bring my Entry-proof for my examination.And i had to trouble daddy to send it to school and i received a great yelling from daddy early in the morning. (thanks ehk father)

However, with alot of bad things that happened to me in the morning.Today marks the end of my prelims (jump for joy). Todays' paper was F&N and i have a feeling that I am going to fail my F&N with such bad marks.It's not that i didn't study for my F&N, i did study but nothing gets into my head.And when i was doing my paper, i was extremely lethargic and i only managed to do half of the paper and left the rest empty.

After the paper, had breakfast with my dear Jaslyn at Northpoint KFC.It has already been 2 days straight that we have been having breakfast at KFC and we sat at the exact same place too.After eatting, we didn't make our move.But instead, our butts were stuck on the chair and we had a great talk and ofcourse not to forget camwhoring too.Thanks Jaslyn for being such a darling and listening to my problems and cheering me up.Love you darling.
After staying at KFC for long enough, we started to walk around NP and than to the library to search for a book that Jaslyn have been searching for.It wasn't easy searching for the books as many were borrowed but thank god, we manage to find a book still.After borrowing it, bumped into ISMAN at the library.Weirdly, he was alone.Jaslyn made her home and i accompanied ISMAN as he was waitting for Amanah to arrive.Few minutes later, we made our way out and ISMAN met AMANAH and i went back home my my rest.

Overall, today was alright.With the help of JASLYN and all the caring friends i have around me.I love you people and i appreciate everything you people have done.And for the people who asked if I'm alright, I'm feeling better now and not to worry the Cherry and bubbly Amalina will be back soon and time will tell.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Last blogged @ 8:27 PM

It's official, once again I've lost love.Is there a sign on my forehead saying "don't be in love with Nana?" or "make Nana fall in love with you and than leave her?" I'm serious people, this has happen to me twice and trust me I'm really hating this.This feeling in me is really killing me, why can't anyone just take a knife and stab to death.Wouldn't that be better and easier compared to hurting me non-stop.

I feared so much that history will repeat itself, that in the end i lost the guy that i love.And the guy whome i need by my side.Now, because of my fear that took over most of me, i've officially lost the guy i love.BUMMER

I'm seriously not strong to be handling this.Didn't sleep the whole night yesterday kept on regretting on my actions. In the end, the next day i have puffy eyes and walked and behaved like a zombie.Was exceptionally quite today, didn't talk much.And i had breakfast at 10.30AM to last me the whole day.

You know who you are, this is for you;
You may say you're not worth crying for.But for me, your worth every single tear.You just mean alot to me.Yes its only a month plus that we've known each other but, i just feel that we've known each other for a very long time.CRAZY MUCH? It's the fact. And i know that i have kept some things from you but i told you everything now.Trust me, i wont and i shall not keep anything from you.And please please please believe me when i say that I LOVE YOU.I really meant what i said and it's not a lie, it was never a lie.And so, i just hope that you wont leave me.But if you still insist on leaving, i cant be holding you back.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Last blogged @ 4:02 PM

I've not been enjoying my days the way i used too.
I've been keeping a lot of things to myself lately
& now i am just torturing myself over and over again.
Trust me, i myself don't understand what is going on with me. Weird much?

Monday, August 3, 2009
Last blogged @ 6:27 PM

You might probably be wonderring who is that little kid up there.Well, that is actually me when i was still a little girl.Maybe around 1 or 2 years old.I was actaully doing some cleaning up and packing some stuffs when i saw my baby pictures and i just thought of sharing one picture with you people.You may laugh looking at my picture, i dont care (:
Wouldn't it be good if i could just remain as a baby?

Alright, now back to reality.I just had my history paper in the morning and i think i did just alright.Thank god, the things that i studied actually came out.My two days of mugging on history didn't go to waste.Despite my messy study table, i manage to write down numerous history notes.And now i'm starting to like writting notes because all my notes are written on SPONGEBOB. "aku love spongebob"